New Divide

Songwriters: Bennington, Chester Charl; Bourdon, Robert; Delson, Brad; Farrell, Dave; Hahn, Joseph; Shinoda, Mike;

I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash as time began to blur
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide

There was nothing in sight but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide, the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes across this new divide

In every loss, in every lie, in every truth that you'd deny
And each regret and each goodbye was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason to fill this hole, connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies across this new divide
Across this new divide, across this new divide

Warm words

海盗湾平安夜的一段话，
We believe that we have changed something. Not just us, but all of us. The Pirate Bay has always been something extra. We didnt just wanna run another tracker. We wanted it to mean something. And you our users have helped us with that. The history of the bay is still being written, it's way to early for a conclusion. (http://thepiratebay.org/blog/177)

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李承鹏的一段话：
由黄健翔、韩寒和我共同参与援建的绵阳小枧希望小学已经建成，这份功劳最大的是成都置信集团，我们只是小小地参与。黄健翔捐赠了一块绝对超过20万的运动草坪，校长对我说，漂亮啊，围边三十多个乡里找不到这么漂亮的操场了（黄健翔还专门发短信说“赶紧用，用烂了我再修”）。韩寒捐赠的是六万元现金的 “文学奖学金”，另外有不低于十五万的电脑和书籍（不是他自己出的书，而是专门给孩子买的学习用的书）。我捐了六万“体育奖学金”和十五万全套运动器械（买的，不是别人赞助的）。那天大雾，黄健翔和韩寒没有来，他们除工作外还有个重要理由“与其带着人马前呼后拥花着上万机票和吃住，不如拿这笔钱来买书和电脑”，我觉得这个很好，否则把村里鸡毛都吃得不剩，就违背我们本意，这恰恰是之前我们反对的。

按他俩私下要求，现场无领导打扰，无记者访问。但有小孩子表演节目，我一直忍不住笑，有个女孩太认真就把跳舞的位置站错了，差点跟另一女孩打起来，还有个小孩表演时把方向搞反了，还有拿球签名的小孩把我叫成陈叔叔……

经查，本次援建质量可靠，时间及时，无诈捐现象，有书面证明。此条只是给一年来总在博客里提问的人们一个交待，不做宣传，此事以后不会再提。因为我们不是演员，只是路人甲乙丙。

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卢安克的一段对话：
然后我才知道，他说他不记得了，是真的不记得了。

“以前我的思考都在头脑里发生，我想到了，但我做不到。现在我不思考了，只感受，反而做到了我之前想做而做不到的，因为思考变成了生活，变成了行为。”

看他的博客，会清晰地看到他这个变化的过程。

他之前写过《与孩子的天性合作》，写下他的研究和经验。几十万字，现在他已经不再记得写过什么，他也不认为会有什么可借鉴的模式。他说他不再思考，也不再写了，只是感受。我当时看的时候担心他坠入虚无，直到采访时，才知道我头脑中的桩子插得何等之深。

“你认为孩子应该是什么样的呢？

“如果自己作为老师，带着一种想像，想像学生该怎么样，总是把他们的样子跟觉得该怎么样比较，是教育上最大的障碍。这样我没办法跟他们建立关系，这个想像就好象一面隔墙在学生和我的之间，所以我不要这个想像”

“但是即使是我们平常接触到的一个很好的老师也会说，比如说我想要一个有创造力的，有想象力的，什么样的学生，他也会有他的一个标准，难道你没有吗？

“那学生做不到，他会不会放弃呢，会不会怪这个学生？”

“可能会失望。”

“我以前考虑过很多方法，最后放弃了，方法都没有用，唯一有用的是老师的心态，老师心态最受影响的就是那种学生该怎么样的想像，他总是想着这个，他没办法进入适合学生的心态，没办法真正去看学生是怎么样子的，如果很开放地看得到，没有什么想像，很自然地就会有反应，适合学生的反应，而这种反应学生很喜欢，很容易接受。”

所以他才说，他没有任何可写的了，他曾经在博客里以巨大的篇幅批评和反对过标准化教育，反对整齐划一的校园，反对“让人的心死去”的教育理念，他跟现实世界里的问题较着劲，现在他说他放弃了要改变什么的想法。我刚一听的时候也一惊。

他说“如果想改变中国的现状，然后带着这个目的做我做的事情，那我不用做了。幸好我不是这样的，我不想改变，我没有这个压力。”

我愣了好一会儿，才接着往下问“如果不是为了改变，那我们做什么？”

“当然会发生改变，改变自会发生，但这不是我的目的，也不是我的责任，也不是压在我的肩膀上的。”

“改变也不是目的？”

“它压着太重了，也做不到”他说“但你不这么想的时候，它会自已发生”。

有人跟我形容过听他说话的感觉-----你以为是禅悟式的玄妙，其实背后是严整的逻辑体系，是一步步推导认识的结果。

“你原来也有过那种着急的要改变的状态，怎么就变了，就不那样了？

“慢慢理解为什么是这个样子，理解了就觉得当然是这样了。

“你对现实完全没有愤怒？

“没有。”

“你知道还会有一种危险是，当我们彻底地理解了现实的合理性，很多人就放弃了。”这是我的困惑。

“那可能还是因为想到自己要改变，所以没办法了，碰到障碍了，就放弃了。我也改变不了，但也不用改变，它还是会变。”

“那我们做什么呢？”

“把自己的事情做好，勇敢一点。”

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看这样的文字和思想，会感觉很温暖。

Slides about Semantic Web

Web 3.0 The Semantic Web

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Semantic Web Landscape 2009

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Some words in "Observation"

“我把它放在一个医学家面前，我说请你给我写三千字，他说行，你等着吧，他肯定写尼古丁含量，几支烟的焦油就可以毒死一只小老鼠，吸烟的人肺癌的发病率，是不吸烟人的多少倍，吸烟如何危害健康。还是这盒烟，我把他拿给一个搞美术设计的人，我说哥们请你写三千字，那哥们给你写，这个设计的颜色，它的民族化的特点，它的标识写出来。我给一个经济学家，他告诉你，烟草是国家税收的大户，如果全不吸烟的话，影响经济发展，还有烟草走私对经济影响。”

“我现在把烟给你，请你写三千字，你就会问写什么呀？”

“你有自己认识事物的座标系吗？有几个？”
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“思想、你、你妈这是三个东西，现在你妈看不懂，这是铁定的事实，到底是这思想错了，还是你妈的水平太低，还是你没把这思想表达清楚？我告诉你，你妈是上帝，不会错。思想本身也不会错，是你错了，是你在叙述这个思想的时候，叙述的节奏、信息的密度和它的影像化程度没处理好，所以思想没有被传递”
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“什么是好片子？”他说。“你的领导不愿意表扬，又找不出理由枪毙，一人在家的时候挺爱看的就是。”

我当年以为是他是说好节目要尖锐，他说“不是，不是说你把采访对象不愿意说的一句话套出来叫牛逼，把他和你都置于风险之中，这不叫力量。要是拿掉你这句话，你还有什么？”

“你的主题要蕴含在结构里，不要蕴含在只言片语里，要追求整个结构的力量。”

“这种结构，是如何去建构这个片子中的相关人物，以及相互关系，在这种关系里呈现出一种深刻。”。

“结论是简单的，关系是深刻的”
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“你必须退让的时候，就必须退让。但在你必须选择机会前进的时候，必须前进。这是一种火候的拿捏，需要对自己的终极目标非常清醒，非常冷静，对支撑这种目标的理念非常清醒，非常冷静。只有你非常清楚地知道你的靶子在哪儿，退到一环，甚至脱靶都没有关系。环境需要你脱靶的时候，你可以脱靶，这就是运作的策略，但你不能失去自己的目标。”

原文地址：http://www.bullogger.com/blogs/chjguancha/archives/349824.aspx

YeeYan

最近几日，烦心的事情来自于国内，也来自于各种纷杂的评论。译言被关掉了，若干个影响甚广的P2P网站也被关掉了。

先说后者。从版权保护的角度而言，这样的行为无可厚非。每个人都需要尊重他人的劳动成果。无论从个人角度而言，所谓的代价或者是其中的分成是多么的不合理，但是既然人们付出了劳动和智慧，并且为其标上了价格，那么就理应获得承认和尊重。而另一方面，这些网站的关闭却叫人痛心。因为它们是面对着中国。我不知道如何形容自己心爱的祖国里种种光怪陆离的事情。优秀的海外电视剧和著作，很大一部分根本无法获得合法的刊发途径。一些不甚优秀，但含有针锋相对观点的作品，更是不得其门而入。绝大部分正式途径获取的信息都经过了严格的筛选。也就是说，没有任何合法的途径，来让每个人自己去决定，相信什么、信仰什么、摒弃什么。在这样一种大环境下，私下的盗版传播成了唯一的途径。如是，一个自相矛盾的现象，很多人在通过非法的途径，获取信息，而这些信息，大都在教导人们向往美好而自由。于是，以合法合理的方式去消除异己之见，也就自相矛盾起来了。

译言的关闭，则没有如上那么纠结。只是痛心、愤怒。伽利略的话，引用了无数次，“If in order to banish the opinion in question from the world it were sufficient to stop the mouth of a single man,... then that would be very easily done. But things stand otherwise. To carry out such a decision it would be necessary not only to prohibit the book of Copernicus and the writings of other authors who follow the same opinion, but to ban the whole science of astronomy. Furthermore, it would be necessary to forbid men to look at the heavens。”。

向往自由和民主，彼此尊重，寻求真相——我从来不认为这是什么私货。右派很多观点，听起来很是幼稚，如果趋向于阴谋论，又过于阴暗；而左派的观点，我所见所闻，没有任何逻辑可言，或仅从利益出发，趋附于犬儒，或仅仅是不断对偏右言论中某个论据证伪。问题在于，证伪本身并不能证实现实制度的合理性。我没有任何“左”、“右”意见，仅仅是通过最朴素的是非观和逻辑，不断思考。

You can built walls separate city from city, people from people. But it is impossible to build wall to separate man from freedom. Because freedom always finds the path to build peace.

http://www.chrysler.com/en/ (12/2009)

Titan reports about Rockets~

from http://e.titan24.com/

记者王猛休斯敦报道

当记者们刚刚涌入火箭的更衣室，就听到海耶斯在吆喝：“请不要靠近阿里扎，让他穿好衣服，待会他会去新闻发布室里接受你们的采访。”俨然，海耶斯在扮演球队媒体官的角色。

这句话确实是火箭媒体官内尔松的常用语，到了季后赛，每场比赛发挥最好的球员会被请进新闻发布室接受采访。得了26分，投中4个三分球的阿里扎腼腆地冲着记者们摇头：“别听他胡说。”他羞答答的样子把众人全逗笑了。拿下骑士，火箭像赢下一场季后赛那般快乐。

虽然骑士是“背靠背”的第二场，虽然前一晚他们在孟菲斯经过加时赛苦战仍然输给了弱旅灰熊，可没人相信火箭能有机会干掉他们。骑士的天赋太好，板凳太深，阵容太高。《休斯敦纪事报》的一位专栏作家说：对，他们应该会累了，可和累相比，我想他们也会更加愤怒，一支以争取冠军为目的的球队，不会容许连败发生的。就是这样，连休斯敦唯一的这家报纸也不看好火箭。在比赛当天上摊的版面上，他们在专栏里疾呼：詹姆斯应该考虑火箭作为转会的目的地，这样火箭终将拥有天赋和领袖，而詹姆斯也终于可以率领一支顽强的团队比赛了。

每当被轻视时，火箭总能爆发出惊人的能量。他们用8比0开局，接着被对手反扑，比分变成了10比13，火箭落后三分。可这群平民球员掀起了更加猛烈的攻势，用一个19比1的高潮完全控制住了局面。压制对手一段时间不难，可要把比赛控制在自己手里整整三节，需要无比坚韧的防守，以及雪中送炭的进攻。火箭以29比14领先时，距离第一节结束还有两分钟，那时候谁能相信，火箭能将詹姆斯和骑士如此轻松地压制在身下，让对手动弹不得。

詹姆斯愤怒了，连冲带撞地杀向火箭的内线。迈克·布朗愤怒了，在斯科拉一个有走步嫌疑的上篮得分之后，追着裁判连嚷带骂，喷出的吐沫星子完全罩住了裁判，被吹了两次技术犯规踢出场。韦斯特也站了出来，他的个头比洛里和布鲁克斯大，速度毫不逊色，变成火箭限制不了的一点，他得到了骑士全队第二高的14分。骑士已经把能用的法子都用了，能使的劲儿都使了，也没能再次追平比分。詹姆斯不得不承认：“这是一支顽强的球队。”

在这个晚上，火箭不仅展露出了顽强，还有一些明星的味道。在每一个关键时刻，阿里扎都站了出来，把皮球送进骑士的篮筐，把对手的传球断掉，阿德尔曼说：“这就是我期盼的，在关键时刻，有人能够站出来。”第一节拉开优势的是阿里扎。原本火箭只领先6分，随时可能被对手反超过去。阿里扎关键时刻一个抢断，快步奔回进攻一端，接到布鲁克斯传球，毫不犹豫地三分出手，命中。下一个回合，詹姆斯准备用三分反击，未中。又是阿里扎从人群里蹿了出来，摘下篮板，扔给布鲁克斯后迅速寻找进攻位置。布鲁克斯又把球扔了回来，阿里扎继续出手，再次命中三分。两个回合只花了不到30秒就把分差变成了12分，逼得骑士叫了暂停。第四节，骑士开始了最后的反扑，一度把分差缩小到5分，阿里扎又站了出来，在骑士锋线的纠缠下拔地而起，中投命中。接着又投中一个三分，在第四节过半的时候把分差再次扩大到12分。

阿里扎笑了，如释重负地笑着。他已经有很长时间没投得如此顺手了。在和骑士的比赛之前，他手感一直都不怎么顺，虽然一场比赛也能得上十多分，可都需要二十次以上的出手次数。尤其是三分球，过去的四场比赛，他只投进了4个三分，可出手了23次。阿里扎说：“我很高兴，终于找到了手感，当前两个三分命中之后，我知道手感来了。这种感觉很好，我已经很久没尝到了，现在我就盼着能保持下去。”

当然，拿下这场比赛不仅仅靠着阿里扎的手感，还有海耶斯舍身与奥尼尔搏斗，还有巴蒂尔纠缠詹姆斯，火箭再一次证明在这个集体中蕴藏着何等巨大的潜能。

兰德里说：“这取决于你是否愿意，如果你想抢一个篮板，你就能，如果你坚定地投篮，你就能得分，我乐于跟最伟大的球员挑战。”斯科拉说：“这取决于你如何使用自己的优势，有些比我高的对手，我反而觉得会打得很舒服，有些比我矮的，我却很讨厌跟他们打。”巴蒂尔说：“每个这样的夜晚，我都会很享受。我们知道这场胜利有多不容易，也知道几乎没谁相信我们能赢，那就算是我们抢来的吧，抢来的会让我们更珍惜。”

swift or high quality

上周和gus.的谈话，收获不小。除了明确一些具体的知识点，例如：需要重新阅读real analysis的书籍，上通信网络的课程需要学好现在的stochastic process之外，最重要的一个提醒，莫过于有关学精和学快之间的关系。

在他看来，一个学期四门课程似乎有些过量了。因为这样就会没有能力把每一门课程学精。而站在我的观点上，我只是想强迫自己尽量多的学习，在尽量短的时间内摄入大量的知识。但，说实话，现在随着复习最后一门考试的深入，越发的感觉到，自己最不足的地方，就是什么知识似乎之前的学习都不是很透彻。数学也好，还是应用编程也好，似乎都需要去查阅大量相关背景。而当大批的任务摆在面前的时候，我又容易犯自己最典型的毛病：什么都不想做，然后消耗着时间，听天由命。

在“学快vs.学精”之外，实际上另一个紧迫的问题在于，导师们都十分精明的等待着好成绩的出现。就像是gus.所说的，招学生就像是赌博，需要提高赌中的概率，有三个方面：最好的学生，对研究方向有兴趣，而且这个学生和老师的目标一致。后两个条件比较空洞，说实话随便掰一掰，谁都能打扮成这个样子。而第一个条件，要求上课100%出勤，要求答疑经常出现，要求每次作业完美无缺，要求全A……没有一个是现在的我能够做到的。想到这些，似乎下学期当真需要减少一门课程，让自己能够以最饱满的精力来应付手头所有的内容。

我勾画过自己理想的样子。不舍昼夜，务必到达。

Expository papers

这段时间做convex optimization的大作业，发现老师们的一个很棒的做法，实际上是从他们大学时就已经开始了——写expository paper。

Expository writing is a type of writing, the purpose of which is to inform, explain, describe, or define the author's subject to the reader. Expository text is meant to deposit information and is the most frequently used type of writing by students in colleges and universities. A well-written exposition remains focused on its topic and lists events in chronological order. (en.wikipedia)

很多文献，看了过段时间总会忘记，而像这样把原委记录下来，序言、定义、公理、证明、结论，以及参考文献，以后自己查阅起来也比简单的digest要有的放矢的多。经过自己大脑加工处理的知识，记忆应用起来，自然也会更加的得心应手。写的时候需要注意，首先尽量搜集相关主题的论文，或者是顺藤摸瓜逐渐填充；其次，把相同的内容进行归类和比较，最终得出根据自己计算或者是最新文献的结论，做醒目标识；第三，写的时候可以是“框架->定理->推论->例子”这样的逐渐填充，但成稿的时候，一定要把所有的定理以及例子进行统一编号；最后，章节以及定理的前后衔接，一定要符合逻辑顺序。

只是，这样的文章貌似写一篇要花不少时间。给自己定一个要求，一个月一篇。一步一个脚印往下走，也能心里更踏实。

Kobe

转自新浪，孙沛的文章

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　　科比真的是个可怕的家伙。他的可怕不在于天赋，而在于极其强烈的好胜心，和由之驱生的刻苦努力。一般情况下，一个已经30岁的、拥有数枚总冠军戒指和上亿美元身家的、早已功成名就的超级巨星，是不会再在基本技术层面上痛下苦功的。如果是安东尼-沃克，一定是把所有钱吃喝嘌赌挥霍一空，再也不管什么篮球；如果是肖恩-坎普，一定是买下成吨的大麻和烈酒，顺便给自己超过两位数的私生子女购买新的玩具；如果是麦迪，一定是隔三岔五地感冒头痛，再象征性地在场上扔一点三分，表示老子其实还是想好好打球的。

　　科比的做法和这些人都不同。他在这个夏天好好休养了身体，又抽空找奥拉朱旺补课，苦练低位和篮下脚步。然后他就完全变了一个人。开季后，所有人都看到科比发疯了似地在低位要球、靠打、转身、后仰、跳投，除了迈克尔-乔丹，联盟历史上再没有第二个后卫如此频繁地利用低位单打取分。

　　截止11月24日，NBA.COM的Hotspots上，清楚地显示科比本赛季在左右两侧的低位45度总共出手64球，占总出手次数的20.8%！如果你不明白这意味着什么，那么再来看看下面的几组数据：德怀特-霍华德在同样区域出手6次，占总出手次数的4.7%；勒布朗-詹姆斯在同样区域出手15次，占总出手次数的5.7%；德维恩-韦德在同样区域出手32次，占总出手次数的11.8%；凯文-加内特在同样区域出手26次，占总出手次数的15.2%；蒂姆-邓肯在同样区域出手32次，占总出手次数的27.6%。

　　看到了么？科比低位单打的比例，不但远远高出其他后卫和锋卫摇摆人，甚至超过全明星级别的内线，几乎要向蒂姆-邓肯看齐。更重要的是，这种进攻方式被证明是极其有效的，尤其在右侧低位45度，科比的投篮命中率高达52.8%，既保存了大量体力，规避了受伤风险，还能提供强力的杀伤，篮球上帝的看家本领果然妙用无穷。

Be a winner

英语有两个词造的很好，winner和loser。winner: One that wins, especially a victor in sports or a notably successful person. loser: One that fails consistently, especially a person with bad luck or poor skills. 汉语对于后者并没有准确的翻译。原因未知。

在美剧里面，尽管不想中国的电视剧一般的脸谱化，但还是可以把人基本上分做这两种。对于前者的描绘，实际上并不是戏剧世界里时常出没的天才们，而是那些对于某一个事物或者是目标执着向前的人，比如彻夜实验的Zack，废寝忘食的Olivia，寻找真相的lightman以及他的同事们……最直接的话语，莫过于刚刚看完的一集bones里面Brandon所说的"keep practice"。可以认为它们都是在进行无形的意识形态灌输。但我更倾向于把它们看做对于某种普世价值观的认同：业精于勤。

没有人会希望成为一个loser。可细究起来，失败的原因无非是因为坏运气或者烂能力。谋事在人，成事在天。那么，如果没有做好前半句，后面无论如何期待，最多是个狗屎运而已了。

最近一直在纠结于随机过程。我的这个学期，按逻辑来讲，远算不上紧张。当然，熟悉环境、改正坏毛病、适应学习方法、适应不同口音、适应不同速度，以及最为重要的，为自己本科时对于时间的浪费无度而还债——如果把这些项目统统计入的话，那我的这个学期还是当真十分忙碌的。

好在最近好像找到了一些正确的节奏和感觉。我希望这些好的东西，都可以通过我的不断努力，不断自我暗示而增强。

而这篇日志，也是我的自我暗示:)

paying debts

情圣迄今为止说过最让我认同的话，就是“现在好好学吧，就当是为我们大学无所顾忌荒诞度日的还债了”。这样的过程在绝大多数的时间里，是一件令人沮丧的事情。发觉自己对于很多默认了解的知识一无所知，然后翻箱倒柜的查找。但平心静气思考，毕竟，现在每天的自己都比前一天充实了一点，哪怕只有一点点。还是一件挺令人鼓舞的事情。

准备从家里寄过来的书目。随时更新~

数理方程

复变函数

Java编程思想

Wireless communications: principles and practice (Theodore S. Rappaport)

代码大全

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silly persons

“我不想教育你，不爱看别看，所以，请你也别来教育我。

——马日拉”

这句话用来形容我现在生活中很多时候的心情分外恰当。找到一个能在思想上有所交流的人，是件困难的事情。所以我从来不奢望这样的事情可以经常发生。更多的时候，并不是我不想去毫无保留的分享所有念头，而仅仅是是因为如果分享注定导致争论，那就没有必要去开启这样的谈话。

在美国这边，和国内差别较大的一件事情就是，每天可以遇见各色人种。不是指肤色，而是指思想。并且更加奇怪的是，很多人都在试图去说服别人。于是，对我而言，就到了这样的一个尴尬的处境：一方面，植根于心底的普世价值，是不可能改变的，那么当遇到异于此的观点，就会感觉很不舒服；另一方面，总会有这样的碎碎念，辩论吧，没这心力，出于尊重还不好骂，听着还觉得傻逼。

还是马日拉老师的这句话“我不想教育你，所以，请你也别来教育我”。

some thoughts in my mind

I want to be a professor of HIT some day:)
I want to graduate from here within three years~
I want to surpass the people surrounding me, again

touching songs

梁静茹，陈奕迅的歌曲，切不可以在如黄昏的清晨肆意沉浸。

偶尔，会很想amoon。做很多幼稚的假设。而我们能交谈的内容，似乎也只剩下，好久不见。

Self-control

我不想让这样一个词语，成为我永恒的一个论题。但不能否认，我总是会在一些小事上，在这里出现很多问题。譬如说，前一天熬夜看书，第二天白天两门课，中间两个小时的间歇时间我还查阅了近三个月的某本学术期刊，并且下载了两个很不错的工具包，然后呢，晚上想，放松一下吧。于是，实况足球+电视剧，就能耗到零点了。又譬如，上午上课，下午无事，回到宿舍，睡个午觉吧。心里想，一个小时，定个闹钟。结果一觉睡到天黑，并且搞得晚上失眠。坐卧不宁。

像是在写检讨。但这些的确都是恼人并且傻逼的错误。

我看得到自己的优点。缺点同样明显。现在我可以比以往任何时候都更加明显的感觉到压力、感觉到环境的优越，以及感觉到自己的不足。

博客是一个用来鼓励自己的地方。检讨先。

sth. that I have to obey

1. 每周的文献，每周按时消化、摘抄；

2. 每节课后务必整理笔记；

3. 作业、项目，一律赶早不赶晚；

4. 隔离reader，隔离msn，隔离校内；

5. 每天最多看一集电视剧......

Computer, Coffee Maker, Audio-Technica

有了自己的房间，有了柔软的大床:)有了大把可以自由安排的时间。还有了一台性能剽悍的电脑，一个小巧的咖啡机，以及从国内带过来的大耳机。感觉生活一下柔软了:)

该做些以前一直在想，而甚至没有时间开始的事情。

7 Thoughts That Are Bad For You

From http://www.livescience.com/

By Jeanna Bryner, LiveScience Senior Writer
posted: 12 September 2009 10:54 am ET
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Our personalities do more for us than determine our social circles. Temperament can impact a person's physical health.

"The idea that behavior or personality traits can influence health is one that's been around for a long time. We're just now getting a handle on to what extent they do," said Stephen Boyle of Duke University Medical Center in North Carolina.

From those with a chill demeanor to the completely frazzled types, mental factors are ultimately tied to physical health. And while a highly neurotic person might deteriorate more quickly than others, not every character trait will kill you. Some might even boost lifetimes.

No. 7: Cynicism

Cynics who tend to be suspicious and mistrustful of others, a character trait that scientists refer to as hostility, may have an increased likelihood of developing heart disease. "These aren't necessarily hot-headed people, but people who are more likely to read into people's behavior as some hostile motive," Boyle said during a telephone interview.

In a study of more than 300 Vietnam veterans who were healthy at the study start, Boyle found that those who scored high on measures of hostility were about 25 percent more likely to develop heart disease.

Boyle and his colleagues think that hostile individuals might experience more stress, which can cause spikes in an immune-system protein called C3 that has been linked with various diseases, including diabetes. In fact, the participants with higher scores on hostility showed an increase in these proteins while the non-hostile men showed no such increase.

No. 6: Lack of meaning

If you lack a sense of purpose, your stay on Earth could be truncated. A study involving more than 1,200 elderly participants who didn't have dementia at the study's start found that those who indicated having a high purpose in life were about half as likely to die over the study period, which lasted up to five years. The results, published in the June 15 issue of the journal Psychosomatic Medicine, held regardless of a person's age, sex, education and race, along with level of depression and neuroticism.

"Persons with high purpose readily derive meaning from and make sense of the events of their lives, and likely engage in behaviors and activities that they deem important," said study researcher Patricia Boyle of the Rush Alzheimer's Disease Center in Chicago.

Some other research has suggested that people with a higher sense of purpose may have different levels of stress hormones, better heart health or improved immune systems, though more research is needed to firm up any of these biological mechanisms, she said.

The opposite also holds: "The findings from our study suggested that people who no longer set and work actively toward goals or enjoy their day-to-day activities (how they spend their time) are those with greater mortality risk," Boyle told LiveScience.

No. 5: Fretting

People who are highly neurotic — constantly worried and anxious, and prone to depression — die sooner on average than their chill counterparts. And a recently reported study of nearly 1,800 men followed over a 30-year period suggests that's partly because neurotics are also more likely to smoke. Perhaps having a cigarette eases anxiety, said study researcher Daniel Mroczek of Purdue University in Indiana, adding that such a short-term payoff might not be worth it if it kills you down the line.

No. 4: Lack of self-control

Late for appointments? Can't keep your desk organized? No self-control? These seeming benign qualities could take a toll on your health.

A review of more than 20 studies and nearly 9,000 participants revealed people who are conscientious — organized, self-disciplined, as opposed to impulsive — live two to four years longer than others. Study researcher Howard S. Friedman of the University of California, Riverside suspects the boost in lifetime can be attributed partly to the fact that highly conscientious individuals are less likely to smoke or drink to excess, and live more stable and less stressful lives. The study is detailed in a 2008 issue of the journal Health Psychology.

No. 3: Anxiety

The jitters can put a strain on your noggin, research suggests. Compared with the highly frazzled, Individuals with a mellow demeanor who are outgoing may be less likely to develop dementia, which can be caused by Alzheimer's disease and other illnesses. The claim is based on a study that followed more than 500 elderly individuals for five years. Among the outgoing extroverts, dementia risk was 50 percent lower for participants who were calm compared with those who were prone to distress.

No. 2: Gloom and doom

The gloomy, inhibited person is not just at a disadvantage socially, but also physically.

A preliminary study of more than 180 patients suffering from peripheral arterial disease (plaque buildup in the arteries) showed participants with so-called type D, or distressed, personality, had an increased odds of dying sooner than other people. Type-D people are more likely to experience negative emotions while at the same time hold in their feelings.

The researchers, who detail their work in the August issue of the journal Archives of Surgery, suggest the personality type is linked with the body's immune system as well as stress response system.

No. 1: Stress

Whatever you do, don't let this list worry you! Research is showing that prolonged stress can be deadly, and if it doesn't do you in, workplace stress can increase your chances of heart disease, flu virus, metabolic syndrome and having high blood pressure.

A study of nearly 700 Israeli workers found that those who experienced job burnout (when work stress becomes unmanageable) were nearly twice as likely to develop type 2 diabetes, in which a person's body becomes resistant to the sugar-regulating hormone called insulin.

And while a job promotion might boost your income, it also stresses you out. British researchers recently found that when people get promoted, they suffer on average about 10 percent more mental strain and are less likely to find time to go to the doctor.

Brian Evanse's advices

前几天和brian聊了很多，不过因为忙乱，很多事情没能及时记录，所以，必然会有些已经淡忘。

1、课程不用紧盯EE的来选，有关音乐与心理感受相关的课程会出现在Psychology的课表里，有关模式识别、机器学习和数据挖掘的课程会出现在CS的课表里，有关作曲、节奏等规律的课程会出现在Music的课表里，有关***的课程会出现在ME的课表里。所以，我需要做的，是综合考虑所有的课程，然后进行选择。

2、需要参加一些研讨班。

3、保持与若干个教授的紧密接触。

4、不断总结自己的研究方向，以及不断做出努力来进行推进。

5、明年二月份，会是一个很重要的月份。

到美国已经将近一个月了。仔细观察一下周围，发现在这里，我已经获得了比国内多的多的各种资源。而更为重要的是，在这里我可以全身心的学习，充实自己。当然，还有锻炼身体，以及连续观看自己喜爱的电视剧和视频短片^_^这种完全的自我支配，令人着迷。

的确，有些时候还是会比较混乱。譬如说，经常为了屁大点儿的一个widget整到凌晨两点多。但我也相信，自己对于自己的控制会越来越好。然后，希望能快点看到个不一样的自己。

Oakland: How to Succeed in Life (by Andrew Carnegie)

Everybody wants to preach to the young, and tell them to be good and they will be happy. I shall not enter far upon that field, but confine myself to presenting from a business man's standpoint of view, a few rules, which, I believe, lie at the root of business success.

First--Never enter a bar-room. Do not drink liquor as a beverage. I will not paint the evil of drunkenness, or the moral crime; but I suggest to you that it is low and common to enter a bar-room, unworthy of any self-respecting man, and sure to fasten upon you a taint which will operate to your disadvantage in life, whether you ever become a drunkard or not.

Second--I wish young men would not use tobacco--not that it is morally wrong, except in so far as it is used in excess and injures health, which the medical faculty declares it does. But the use of tobacco requires young men to withdraw themselves from the society of women to indulge the habit. I think the absence of women from any assembly tends to lower the tone of that assembly. The habit of smoking tends to carry young men into the society of men whom it is not desirable that they should choose as their intimate associates. The practice of chewing tobacco was once common. Now it is considered offensive. I believe the race is soon to take another step forward, and that the coming man is to consider smoking as offensive as chewing was formally considered. As it is practically abandoned now, so I believe smoking will be.

Third--Having entered upon work, continue in that line of work. Fight it out on that line (except in extreme cases), for it matters little what avenue a young man finds first. Success can be attained in any branch of human labor. There is always room at the top in every pursuit. Concentrate all your thought and energy upon the performance of your duties. Put all your eggs into one basket and then watch that basket, do not scatter your shot. The man who is director in a half dozen railroads and three or four manufacturing companies, or who tries at one and the same time to work a farm, a factory, a line of street cars, a political party and a store, rarely amounts to much. He may be concerned in the management of more than one business enterprise, but they should all be of the one kind, which he understands. The great successes of life are made by concentration.

Fourth--Do not think a man has done his full duty when he has performed the work assigned him. A man will never rise if he does only this. Promotion comes from exceptional work. A man must discover where his employer's interests can be served beyond the range of the special work allotted to him; and whenever he sees his employer's interests suffer, or wherever the latter's interests can be promoted, tell him so. Differ from your employers upon what you think his mistakes. You will never make much of a success if you do not learn the needs and opportunities of your own branch much better than your employer can possibly do. You have been told to "obey orders if you break owners." Do no such foolish thing. If your employer starts upon a course which you think will prove injurious, tell him so, protest, give your reasons, and stand to them unless convinced you are wrong. It is the young man who does this, that capital wants for a partner or for a son-in-law.

Fifth--Whatever your wages are, save a little. Live within your means. The heads of stores, farms, banks, lawyers' offices, physicians' offices, insurance companies, mills and factories are not seeking capital; they are seeking brains and business habits. The man who saves a little from his income has given the surest indication of the qualities which every employer is seeking for.

Sixth--Never speculate. Never buy or sell grain or stocks upon a margin. If you have savings, invest them in solid securities, lands or property. The man who gambles upon the exchanges is in the condition of the man who gambles at the gaming table. He rarely, if ever, makes a permanent success. His judgment goes; his faculties are snapped; and his end, as a rule, is nervous prostration after an unworthy and useless life.

Seventh--If you ever enter business for yourself, never indorse for others. It is dishonest. All your resources and all your credit are the sacred property of the men who have trusted you; and until you have surplus cash and owe no man, it is dishonest to give your name as an indorser to others. Give the cash you can spare, if you wish, to help a friend. Your name is too sacred to give.

Do not make riches, but usefulness, your first aim; and let your chief pride be that your daily occupation is in the line of progress and development; that your work, in whatever capacity it may be, is useful work, honestly conducted, and as such ennobling to your life.

To sum up, do not drink, do not smoke, do not indorse, do not speculate. Concentrate, perform more than your prescribed duties; be strictly honest in word and deed. And may all who read these words be just as happy and prosperous and long lived as I wish them all to be. And let this great fact always cheer them: It is impossible for any one to be cheated out of an honorable career unless he cheats himself.

APML

now I am trying to type my idea in English, especially in school's computers which have no chinese input methods at all:)

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there is a new interesting concept named APML (Attention Profiling Make-up Language), which can help user find more precise information they want.

here are some relevant webpage about the topic.

http://www.masternewmedia.org/online_marketing

/attention-profiling-apml

/apml-beginners-guide-attention-profile-20071113.htm

http://www.apml.org/

http://cleverclogs.org/2007/10/basics-of-atten.html

http://eliasbizannes.com/blog/

2007/10/explaining-apml-what-it-is-why-you-want-it/

……

到美国了。有好的，也有不好的。
梦到了哭泣的自己
小星星，还有小孙老师
以及许许多多破碎而凌乱的画面

忘记是那本书中说过
梦中哭泣的人，无非是隐藏了更深的脆弱

Great Huston Rockets!

Beat LA~

Are You Really an Entrepreneur?

(from readwriteweb.com)

1. You're always looking for opportunities. This is almost the definition of an entrepreneur. Every pain point is an opportunity.

2. Are you prepared to work long hours, every day, for an indefinite period of time? Ahem, let's dispel illusions. Put down "The 4-Hour Workweek"; it is a myth that the author spun to sell books (so that he could work 4 hours a week).

3. Good Health. You cannot answer "Yes" to item #2 unless you are blessed with good health and the discipline to maintain it in tough times.

4. Do you have a unique service or product? Most entrepreneurs have a pocketful of ideas, many of them viable. But they suffer from the "kid in a candy store" dilemma, not knowing which to choose. The trick is choosing the one that really is a winner and having the discipline (see item #9) to ignore all the others.

5. Are you willing to make short-term sacrifices for long-term success? There will be long periods of time when everyone around you questions your sanity, and on all normal metrics (hours worked and stress endured vs. material rewards gained), they would be right.

6. Honesty and integrity. You often have to be able to work with people without the protection of legal contracts. It is the essence of moving fast, and you often simply won't be able to afford a lawyer. So, you have to work with people who have honesty and integrity. It is hard to do that unless you have honesty and integrity yourself.

7. You're dreaming miles ahead while focused on what you're doing right now. The entrepreneur is an odd mix: part dreamer, part brutal realist and pragmatist. You should focus first on today and, secondly, on the big picture, and ignore the rest. Today is about the immediate stuff that you have to get done to stay in business, to deliver projects to clients, to collect cash, and so on. The big picture is about looking at what the world might look like 10 years from now and then building towards that. We cannot know what will happen next week, month, or year. The medium term is totally unknown. However, many long-term trends are fairly clear, even though the timetable is unknown.

8. Are you self-confident? You will almost certainly be going against odds that would make most people run away.

9. Discipline. This relates to many of the other traits mentioned in this checklist. You will need discipline to maintain your health (item #2), so that you can work hard (item #3), so that you can focus on the one product or service you have chosen and ignore all temptations (item #4).

10. You're prepared to say, "I don't know, but I'll figure it out." Entrepreneurs have to be generalists. They may know one thing very, very well. But they also have to know enough about almost everything else to occasionally do those things themselves, and have the judgment to eventually hire the right people to do those things.

Good things about journalism

From the New York Times

1. A really strong desire to find the truth, wherever it may lurk;

2. An assumption that everyone knows more than you, and that your job is to find, cultivate, question, and listen to your sources, and then come to a view;

3. An inclination not to take anything at face value, because everyone has a point of view, and those points of view are usually driven by self-interest;

4. A resolve not to let commercial interests (in other words, advertisers) influence your search for the truth.

文章探讨的是新闻工作者真正的意义。不过，写出的却似乎是一个放之各个行业皆准的原则。

No watching when walking. When watching no walking

这是华山上最为常见的一个标语。

在忙碌过后的一个急刹车，用一种近乎自虐的方式。体能还没有从接连的熬夜里恢复过来，就选择了攀爬这座以险峻闻名于世西岳，回想起来还真是佩服自己。一趟华山，需要总结的东西很多。譬如，应当结伴而行，否则很有可能半途而废；应当下午开始爬山，而不是像华阴镇上很多小旅店招揽顾客宣称的“夜爬华山”，否则会错过许多奇美的景致；上山沿盘山道而行，下山坐索道，是个符合体力曲线的好方法；山顶旅馆贵的夸张，租个帐篷若干好友连聊带休息，既经济划算而且别有趣味；早晨登顶，掐算好时间，完全没有必要租什么军大衣，否则就是像我一样，纯粹变成了考验自己体力的负重训练；等等……

千丈崖也好、天梯也好，还是临空的栈道也好。考验体力，更考验毅力。路上偶尔可以遇到有人坐在石阶上咒骂“他妈的，老子再也不来了”，或者是“不爬了，老娘把这辈子的山都爬完了”……而我们同行的四个人，就像是大多数人一样，互相鼓励，开着玩笑，然后一路向前。最搞笑的是猪，这哥们儿对于时间很是敏感：几点了，爬了多久，需要再多久到那个里程。途中租我们帐篷的小哥说话总是不靠谱，问他再爬多久到东峰，他说20分钟，结果我们爬了40分钟；问他几点日出，他说六点半，结果幸亏没有信他，我们五点半看到了红彤彤的太阳。还有一次，问他再多少分钟能到下一个洗手间，他说两分钟。然后猪说，“好，我就掐两分钟的时间，时间一到我马上就尿……”……挺好的。

路上的八卦也不错。猪和志，一眼就能看出有夫妻相，可是两个人都装傻。于是，我只能从对话中窥探某些线索。譬如，志说，“爬山爬的，我的大腿小腿都不是我的了”。于是，猪说，“那就都是我的”。又譬如，志问猪，“你背个军大衣不累么？”猪说，“没关系。再多的衣服也能背！”志说，“那我就把衣服都脱给你背。”猪大喜，说，“@#￥%&。”然后就被志晾到一边，半天没有搭理^_^

有关标题的这个警示语，本想写篇励志文章的。结果发现明显跑题了。写不来那种小故事大道理的文章。不过感触很深。景色很美，但看景走路，很容易就会掉入深到恐怖的山涧。于是，两者只能择其一——视体力而定，视心情而定，视目的而定。其实，不只是爬华山。其实做什么事情都是这样的。

Belief in sb or sw

转一篇好朋友兼小朋友的日志~:)

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从去年的AO开始，我渐渐的习惯了你的失落。

直到现在。

突然发现原来喜欢一个人可以喜欢的这么深。

但是，因为喜欢的深，所以伤的深。

我还记得，去年温网，守着电视机到凌晨五点，但是你输掉了比赛，于是我一夜没睡，哭了。

我还记得，去年你连输几站，世界第一岌岌可危，我经常上课走神，生怕下一秒你就不再是世界第一。

我还记得，去年奥运会的时候，我在英国，飞奔到酒吧里看电视，就为了看看当旗手的你。

我还记得，你输掉了奥运会的单打比赛，向观众席鞠躬，我抱着电脑，大哭。

我还记得，你和小瓦拿到了双打冠军，那灿烂的金镶玉。

我还记得，去年美网的决赛，是在一个下雨的清晨。我去上学了，刚出地铁站，老妈打来电话，你赢了。于是我淋着雨蹲在地上哭得毫无形象，把同学吓了一跳。

我还记得……

记得的太多太多，我数不过来。

今年AO我看见了你的眼泪，心碎的眼泪。

连着几天，我都失眠了。

一闭上眼睛，就是你在哭。

我不是个勇敢的人。

我不敢给自己背上太多的负担。

所以，对不起，Roger，我只能和你说再见，再也不见。

我不后悔，我爱过了痛过了笑过了哭过了，我还有回忆。

See you, Roger.

Best wishes.

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就好像是《Serenity》里那个先知临终前说的话，no matter what you believe, just believe it.每个人都会有可以让他称之为信仰的东西。或者是一支球队，或者是一个乐队，或者是某个人、某种处事态度、某种生活状态；更持久的，是某个有关于自己的目标。所有这些东西，有时候会混为一谈，模糊而持久的伫立在远方。

所以，尽管可以难过，也没什么好一直难过下去的。我们都需要一直前行，向着藉由某个人所勾勒出来的自己。

Timetable

8:30--12:00     Experiment/ Code debugging

13:30--16:00   Reading references

16:00--18:00   Writing thesis

18:30--21:30    Teaching in NOS

22:00--23:00   Physical Excercises

23:00--23:30   Answering Emails

The 1st time

凡事都有第一次。

第一次写这样网络应用的代码，一千多行，写了将近半个月。不过总算是吭哧出来了。准备过两天放到google code里面测试一下反应:)

# -*- coding: utf-8 -*-

#

# GDnet - A Python interface to online-music recommendation

# Copyright (C) 2008-2009  Wu Qiong

#

# This program is free software; you can redistribute it and/or

#  modify it under the terms of the GNU General Public License

#  as published by the Free Software Foundation; either version 

#  2 of the License, or (at your option) any later version.

#

# This program is distributed in the hope that it will be useful,

# but WITHOUT ANY WARRANTY; without even the implied 

# warranty of MERCHANTABILITY or FITNESS FOR   

# A PARTICULAR PURPOSE. See the GNU General Public

# License for more details.

#

# You should have received a copy of the GNU General Public

# License along with this program; if not, write to the Free

# Software Foundation, Inc., 59 Temple Place, Suite 330,

# Boston, MA 02111-1307, USA

__name__ = 'GDnet'

__version__ = '0.0.1'

__doc__ = 'A Python interface to online-music recommendation'

__author__ = 'Wu Qiong'

__email__ = 'creasywuqiong@gmail.com'

Graduation Design

一周以来一直在用python做一些网络编程的东西。忽然感觉这是个比C或者Java都要人性化的语言。不需要声明变量，不需要大括号，回行自动缩进，更接近语言形式的交互，丰富的脚本资源……当真一用就马上熟悉了。此外，最近看两本和pyghon有关的书籍时候，更清晰的感觉到，大师的迷人之处就在于，能够把很晦涩的东西用最简练和形象的语句表达出来，没有雕琢的痕迹，也不会故弄玄虚。如果拿这样的学术作风和自己对比，就会很是羞愧难当——当被审稿人质疑文章缺乏学术深度的时候，甚至没有想过去据理力争，第一反应是挑拣背景知识里最复杂最冗长的公式堆砌到文章的恰当位置；更搞的是一个中国的国际会议投稿，审稿意见回来竟然是“英语表达不过关，语言缺乏深度”，我心里想“~!&%￥#@”，然后理所当然的进行文章的“GRE难句化”，写出了让ETS都会自惭形秽的恶心句子，文章倒是顺利的录用了。

需要反省的事情很多，这算是很重要的一个。之前但凡遇到文科同学，总要心口不一的羡慕一番，“你看，你的学科多好，可以不用实验不用仿真，满嘴跑火车就成”。实际上，无非是想显摆一下自己所从事的这项严谨的事业而已。而细想起来，这种注重实事求是的学科，跑火车也不是什么少见的事情。玩的大一点，就像是韩国的那个Woo Suk Hwang教授，造假造的都快获得诺贝尔奖了。玩的小一点，在各种文献搜索引擎中的中文论文，有很大一部分都是抄的，无非是多个仿真结果而已。前阵子论文中期审核时候，导师还批评我们这帮答辩的，“你们的参考文献怎么都是外文的呢？”——是啊，中文的大部分都是抄的，参考也要参考个原本不是。

跑题了。毕业论文会写个音乐推荐的软件，有些类似 Itunes Genius，但音频分析的部分更加侧重一些。工作量有一些大，希望能够按时完成吧:) 附件是两个很有效的Python脚本，抓取网站API。具体实现才发觉，土豆或者Amazon的推荐功能实际还是很初级的^_^

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C:\Python25>cd feedparser

C:\Python25\feedparser>python setup.py install

running install

running build

running build_py

creating build

creating build\lib

copying feedparser.py -> build\lib

running install_lib

copying build\lib\feedparser.py -> C:\Python25\Lib\site-packages

byte-compiling C:\Python25\Lib\site-packages\feedparser.py to feedparser.pyc

running install_egg_info

Writing C:\Python25\Lib\site-packages\feedparser-4.1-py2.5.egg-info

C:\Python25\feedparser>cd..

C:\Python25>cd pydelicious-0.5.0

C:\Python25\pydelicious-0.5.0>python setup.py install

running install

running build

running build_py

creating build

creating build\lib

copying pydelicious.py -> build\lib

running install_lib

copying build\lib\pydelicious.py -> C:\Python25\Lib\site-packages

byte-compiling C:\Python25\Lib\site-packages\pydelicious.py to pydelicious.pyc

running install_egg_info

Writing C:\Python25\Lib\site-packages\pydelicious-0.5.0-py2.5.egg-info

C:\Python25\pydelicious-0.5.0>

Thank you all~

最近看了不少关于自己的评价。

谢谢正评价~:) 很感谢。我会更加努力，讲义和笔记能派上用场，就是最大的褒奖了~

谢谢混和评价:)~ 我知道自己无论到什么时候，都还有方面需要改进。其实现在上课一直是这样，总会去想，“这一点，之前的某个班里并没有讲透彻”。我唯一可以做弥补的，就是倾注更大的热情去回复每一个来往的邮件和信息。

谢谢负评价~尽管会有怨气，但我始终感谢从小时候到现在的每一个看低我的人。这是一种分外强大的进步动力。只是，如果仅仅因为这种评价而误导了你上课的时间，那倒真的是件很可惜的事情。

寒假彻底过去。开始专心到自己的工作上了~~

Build on, rather than replace, one another.

忙活了一上午，忽然很欣喜自己的理解力大增，一本晦涩参考英文书竟然一马平川的看了一半~~~~忽然看到一页，有个十分熟悉的五角星标注着：“应该和BP内核能够优势互补”……咦？怎么之前这本书竟然有人看过？怎么这个人还和我想的一样？怎么会这么有缘？莫非……

果然……翻了半天阅读摘抄才发现，这本书去年十月份我断断续续地看过一些。只是由于申请学校加寒假课程，早就半途而废了。白窃喜了一番……

切实教训。工作进度是要时刻记录的。

bullshit

偶然。几分钟录音里的话让我重新认识一个傻逼！真他妈恶心

做人首先应该学会尊重别人，但你不会

 

Winter Classes End

昨天结完了最后一个GMAT班，没有任何感觉。回到宿舍蒙头大睡。醒来看到星光灯火，恍惚了半天才知道自己身处的状况。忽然很想念香烟。翻了半天，早就记不得二十多天之前扔到哪里去了。再看看手表，只好做罢。只是有了一种空空的感觉。就好像是刚刚考完高考、GRE，或者刚刚递送走Georgia Institute of Technology的材料一样。习惯了一种生活模式，要么是持续将近一年的复习，要么是持续了数月的申请，要么是这二十几天满负荷的倾囊而出。戛然而止。

盘点一下寒假的消耗~

念慈庵蜜炼川贝琵琶膏   2.5瓶

念慈庵蜜炼川贝琵琶糖   2盒

金嗓子喉宝   1.5盒

梨    5个

金喉健喷雾   1瓶

巧克力     若干

袜子       1双

最后这个比较诡异，因为在自己印象中，除了头几天我比较欢实的在讲台上蹦跶之外，大部分的时间我都是坐着的。实在是没那个心力像年轻时候一样全程蹦来蹦去了:)竟然这样也会费袜子……

寒假的感动很多。绝大部分来源于三个住宿班。男孩子女孩子们，苦中作乐、努力不懈的样子。看到之后，心力暖暖的，感觉无论如何努力的备课以及答疑都是不够的。

记得一次有个住宿班要连上三节课，结果下午四点下课后，答疑到晚饭时候。吃过饭回到教室休息室，碰到个老教师，他问，“下午去哪里了？”

“答疑一直没动地方。”

“新来的吧？”

“也不新了，都已经……”

“没过三年？”

“嗯……”

第二天换了另外一个住宿区，还是我俩。又是三节课。我又是答疑直到晚上上课之前。在回去的车上，他拍着我的肩膀说，“小同志，你‘新’的不轻啊！”——“……”我无言以对。如果这个仅仅是因为“新”的缘故。那我宁愿一直都这样下去。或者，在心地僵硬之前离开这里。将心比心，是我在做任何事情时候最常使用的方法。如果对方本无所谓，那我当然也无所谓，甚至可以束之高阁。但如果都是坦诚相见，又何必藏着掖着呢。老师是人，所以需要足够的时间缓解体力。学生也是人，不仅仅是一个集合名词，而且他们每个人也都面临这人生最重要的考验。所以，能尽力时还是要尽力的~

最近校内加了不少学生，给我发回对于上课的反馈竟然是“可爱”……呃……这个……

老罗曾经讲了一句，“骂我，我就扭捏，因为没有骂到点子上；夸我，我又局促，因为夸得还不够”。哈哈~那是真正的牛人。像我这样的凡人，感觉到的是，“骂我，我就扭捏，因为确实没有骂到点子上；夸我，我又局促，因为也确实没有夸到点子上”。

胡言乱语，到此为止~

晚安^_^

Waiting and Praying

和萱萱聊天，说到垃圾邮件箱中可能会有好消息。心情忐忑的看了，没有……网上看到，有人收到了拒信，有人收到了offer。于是更加忐忑。

anyway, now, no news is good news.

a prayer for the wild at heart, kept in cages

An Interesting Professor

>>Are You Taking New Students?

Yes, I am currently taking students, and I do have funding for them. The areas of my research are described on my home page, and my current research is some extrapolation of what's written there. I am only interested in PhD students - if you want a MS only, I'm not the right choice for your advisor. When I state that I am accepting students, this does not imply that I admit anyone directly. So, the process of becoming my student is the following: apply to the graduate program in general, get accepted, perform well in your first year classes and exams, and at some point in your first year, discuss what you're interested in doing. Please, do not send me your application and resume right now. Doing so proves that you're capable of ignoring the instructions written several times in this single page.

>>What Is Your Ideal Student?

I'm not looking for slave labor, nor am I looking for programming drones. The ideal student for me is some combination of being bright and being hard-working. Coupled with this is the desire to actually pursue research, which is some catch-all term for investigating an area where you don't have all of the answers. I'd rather deal with someone who's willing to be a little risky and come up with nothing than someone who's willing to risk nothing and comes up with nothing exciting. Research by its nature is an inherent gamble. However, it's a risk that can be managed - if you aim for something ambitious, you may not graduate in four years. However, when you do graduate, chances are that you'll have far more interesting options than someone who just wanted to get out as quickly as possible. That being said, I also want someone who is practical - a working incomplete system is far more useful than a complete but non-working system. So, some amount of programming is almost always needed in order to get your PhD. In fact, chances are good that you'll do a fair bit of programming on your own projects. Such is life.

>>How Do I Get More Answers?

If you have more questions, I'm willing to provide more answers. However, I need to have some proof that you've bothered to read this far. So, what I ask is that if you want to write me a question, please open it with "Dear Sidney Poitier," which is the name of a famous actor. This will let me know that you read this whole page and that I shouldn't just delete your e-mail. If you're wondering why I ask that you call me Sidney Poitier, it's because I receive too much mass e-mail that starts off with "Dear Sir:" - a look into Poitier's filmography will answer the rest.

Pretty Old Days

听着BSB的歌，是种很奇妙的感觉。就好像是又看到了初中的自己，那个只喜欢刘若英和back street boy的大男孩。想来，那会儿也许只是想找个大哥哥，或者大姐姐，说自己想说的，唱自己想唱的。尽管仍然很喜欢他们，但不能否认，无论是奶茶还是AJ的声线和旋律都称不上独特。略微扩大一下视野，都能发现很多雷同的事物。那是个蓝色情歌和男孩和声组合泛滥的年代。也许仅仅因为我最先听到了他们的歌，所以时至今日，他们的声音仍然是最为特别的。

大一有段时间很是眷恋DIDO大妈的絮叨。想来，大概是由于老妈不在身边，忽然发觉真的需要个人继续在耳边唠唠叨叨。Since her songs are full of witty, ironic, and malicious remarks just as having a conversation with her, it is really delightful to listen to them.

几天前，听SLIPKNOT和LULLACRY的新专辑，给J8M发短信，说，“我感觉自己又年轻了:)”。很长一段时间，我们生活里只有这样的音乐，强烈断档的不均衡，却包涵着犹如古典乐般严谨的旋律。这也许是天下最俱可恨的一群人，拥有别人无法企及的才华却肆意挥洒。这里面包裹了许多人ANGLES、QUEENS、LINKIN、NIGHTWISH、POISON、METALLICA、MAROON5......

也许所有的风格都是应时应景而生，听一首歌，想起一段时光，真好:)

To myself

1. Continuing improving in some aspects of life;

2. Recording every little, tiny, small innovation spark and improvement;

3. Compare all of the attributes in two experiments in order to yield convincing conclusions;

4. Maybe you should build a list revealing what tasks you are engaging now;

5. It is better early than late.

Hazy Future

下午和能在bridge里聊天。他说毕业后一定会回国，一来因为他老爸一人在国内，真的是需要个伴儿相互照顾；二来，他说若是留在米国，现在已经能看到自己35岁的样子，很没有意思，回国尽管压力会更大，但机会也更多。

一副五大三粗的样子，往往会让人忽视他内心的缜密和强大。而看着他透过玻璃遥望远方的眼神，忽然发觉自己的许多好友竟然会有如此这般的相似。刘表、sunf、小猫、三立……坐在对面的能，以及如同站在镜子面前的自己。我们都在寻找，甚至是沿着相同的思路，采用相似的方法。

sth about autism

不知道加上一个“症”字是否恰当，就像是不知道这样的感觉是否应当使用“治愈”的字眼一样。只是偶尔，可以比较清楚的了解，自己和周围多了一道墙，这种感觉就叫做，寂寞。蔡智恒曾经精辟的描述过这样的感觉：孤单只代表身边没有人.；寂寞是一种内心感受无法与人沟通的心理状态……因为抽烟所以寂寞，因为寂寞所以抽烟；抽到后来，往往不知道抽的是烟还是寂寞。

我不是一个合群的人，喜欢坐在露台上静静地看雨天里熙熙攘攘的人群。喜欢在咖啡馆里数着城铁站进进出出的列车。喜欢站在安全的距离以外思考每一个细节。我会毫无保留的帮助每一个好认识的人，但过近的距离总会让我感觉局促而不安。在D-22，对着不知名的乐手，和几个操着南方口音的美国鬼子或是英语蹩脚的芬兰人有一搭没一搭的扯淡，几瓶啤酒半包香烟会让我度过一个惬意的周末夜晚。同学聚会的KTV包房，总为连目光都无处投放而感到局促。

我只有不多的几个好朋友。期待着和他们相聚的日子。每次总会希望能盘膝而坐，彻夜长谈直至天明。在冯小刚今年的贺岁剧里，最让我感触的是那个在日本的朋友，自己唱着歌离去。如泣如诉。这般的烂情绪从去年的最后一天纠缠我直到现在。和几个好友的聚会只是让它更加发酵。我们都会有自己的事业，自己的家庭，自己的孩子。然后天各一方。

这也许就是寂寞吧。

Google's production

今天看了两篇文章，分析google如何能够取得人们的好感和使用，第一篇的key words只有一个“CONTROL”。但我感觉，这样的分析有些过于简化了。的确，google中的控制权使我感觉很好。现在还清楚的记得，一周前，从压根儿不懂CSS的语句，到按照一个模板自己修改、设计整个页面，不断试验直到满意时候自己的欣喜。Gmail中的自定义智能屏蔽和标签管理也让我现在基本放弃了outlook。但是，原因似乎远非如此。

第二篇文章是Google官方博客中的技术人员写的。更加接近使用时的真实感受，只是感觉文字还是有点虚幻。我就从一个使用者的角度，加入一些总结吧~

1. Focus on people—their lives, their work, their dreams.

纯粹的广告语言，跳过~

2. Every millisecond counts.

虽然没有开发人员在自己博客里面声称的加速56倍那么夸张，但Chrome对于Javascript的内核支持的确使得很多网站的访问速度大大加快。网站对于Java脚本的密集应用，让“load and run”模式明显劣于Chrome的应用浏览器内部网络，尽管Google标称的“cloud computing”还相当的虚幻。同样的两个页面，来自blogger和spaces.msn，装载速度天差地别，当然我会选择那个让我效率更高的地方。 在这里，与其说是技术原因，不如说是设计思路的问题。

3. Simplicity is powerful.

当把新浪网中打开一个网页看着各种低俗广告的蹦来蹦去，和Google reader简明扼要的rss浏览比较，对于后者的选择也就顺理成章了。同样是邮件广告，在新浪中，是强行加入每个邮件的末尾，大多是什么智联招聘或者某某婚介网之类。而gmail是读取邮件关键字并以标志性的文字形式在屏幕最边上一列给出相关广告。尽管一般而言两种广告我都不会去点击，但相信后者的广告针对性会更好一些。这样简简单单的关键字搜索技术，如果新浪的技术人员不会的话，我这个刚刚入门的学生可以教你们。

4. Engage beginners and attract experts.

我是基本被engage了……

5. Dare to innovate.

在gmail的lab里面，有很多小的gadget，大部分派不上任何的用场。但感觉很可爱。就好像看到自己某一天，一时性起鼓捣出一串蹩脚的代码，试试看，还能运行，那就算作是一个成果好了:)当然，也不能忘记google reader和google maps，都是lab里面毕业生~

6. Design for the world.

google程序员的口号，忽略~

7. Plan for today's and tomorrow's business.

同上。

8. Delight the eye without distracting the mind.

算是一个感受。不会强行插播广告，没有放入无法屏蔽的垃圾邮件。而且，界面已经远非当年那样简陋了:)

9. Be worthy of people's trust.

这个应该让李彦宏以及牛根生看看。有一次开什么员工会议，领导在台上说，“我和牛根生、李彦宏是好朋友，所以他们有难的时候我一定会帮，我们都是中国民营企业的典范”。说的倒也没错，除了谈不上典范，几个人都是一路货。李彦宏的竞价排名和三鹿公关，已经让我彻底的厌恶了这个人。把责任往奶农身上推，然后在进入资本市场寻求发展之后还要“抵御外辱”，我相信很多事情，媒体的报道和当事者本人的初衷出入甚大。往小里说，要先学会做人，才能去做事。往大里说，"Don't be evil"应当是每个企业遵循的准则。

10. Add a human touch.

这个属于“CONTROL”的范畴，第一篇文章讲得肯定比我透彻:)

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<Why products fail>

by Mike Elgan

Why do some people prefer Windows XP and Mac OS X over Windows Vista? After all, Vista is pretty and sleek and much more advanced than XP, and, in many areas, Mac OS X. Why is there so much love for Xbox, but none for Windows Mobile?

Why do BlackBerry users love their BlackBerrys, but the public is lukewarm about Palm devices?

Why is the Amazon Kindle, which is an unsophisticated, clunky, poorly designed gadget so popular with owners?

Why do people love plain, ugly Gmail?

The answer to these questions is a mystery to most of the companies that make PCs, gadgets, consumer electronics devices and to software makers. The industry spends billions on usability testing and user interface design. Unfortunately, that money is mostly wasted.

The problem is that there are too many technologists in technology. The technology is only half the equation. The other half is the human, that irrational, impulsive, impatient, power-hungry gratification machine.

When you ask someone what they really want, they won't tell you the truth because they're not aware of the truth.

Both users and product designers alike talk about user interface (UI) consistency, usability and simplicity, and system attributes like performance and stability. What's missing is that these attributes are means to an end. The real issue is always the user's physiological feeling of being in control. And control comes in many ways:

Consistency: Designers focus on UI "consistency," but why? Consistency gives predictability, which gives users a feeling that they know what will happen when they do something -- even for the first time. It's a feeling of mastery, of control.

Usability: One of the errors software and hardware designers make is to base their UI decisions on the assumption that the user is an idiot who needs to be protected from himself. Give this moron too much rope and he'll hang himself, the reasoning goes. But instead of taking the Microsoft route -- burying and hiding controls and features, which protects newbies from their own mistakes but frustrates the hell out of experienced users -- it's better to offer a bullet-proof "undo." Give the user control, let them make their own mistakes, then undo the damage if they mess something up.

Simplicity: Simplicity is complex. And there are many ways to achieve it. One way is to insist on top-to-bottom, inside-and-outside simplicity. Extreme examples include the original Palm Pilot organizer, Gmail and RSS feeds. And then there's the illusion of simplicity, which is the Microsoft route. In trying to be the operating system vendor for all people and all tasks, Microsoft Windows and Windows Mobile are extraordinarily complex pieces of software engineering. To "simplify," the company hides features, buries controls and groups features into categories to create the appearance of fewer options, without actually reducing options. (From all accounts, it appears that Windows 7 will offer more of the same.) Both extremes result in something you could call "simplicity." But one version thrills users by putting them in control. The other frustrates them by taking away control.

Performance: Everyone hates slow PCs. It's not the waiting. It's the fact that the PC has wrenched control from the user during the time that the hourglass is displayed. That three seconds of staring at the hourglass is three seconds when you feel utterly powerless. Fast computers are good because they keep the user in control.

Stability: Designers focus on system "stability," but it's not because they worry about time wasted, though that's how users tend to talk a lack of stability. Like the performance issue, instability is about the theft of system control from the user. People waste all kinds of time on all kinds of things, and usually don't mind doing it. What enrages people is when somebody else forces wasted time on you. Blue Screens of Death are more akin to running into unexpected traffic jams or having somebody take away the TV remote control. You're forced into putting your objectives on hold, and left feeling powerless.

One reason for the industry-wide pandemic of frustrating products is that the whole culture of usability testing doesn't emphasize user feelings of control. Microsoft does usability tests, for example, but its tests are flawed. Typically, it sits random people in front of a PC in a usability lab. Victims are directed to do various tasks, and asked what they're doing and thinking as they try to complete those tasks. All of this is monitored, and everything is recorded.

Microsoft usability testing tends to focus on enabling users to "accomplish goals." Microsoft categorizes these goals according to their educated preconceptions about what people are trying to do based on their jobs or user categorization are you a student, middle manager, designer, for instance. So Microsoft focuses on results. My view is that how the user feels during the process is more important than anything else.

Here's the problem. In these scenarios, users are using somebody else's PC. They expect and assume that the software is in control. There is no psychological feeling of "ownership" over the equipment or the software or the work or anything. So the most important element -- the sense of control people feel when doing their own work on their own PCs in their own homes -- is missing entirely from the tests.

During usability tests, users are asked constantly about the software. And that's the wrong question. When real people are doing real work, they're focused on their own desires and objectives and are frustrated or not frustrated based on the degree to which they're given what they want.

My advice to Microsoft is to add an additional test: a "Who's In Control?" test. After performing a task, ask the user to rank their experience on a scale with "me in control" on one side, and "software in control" on the other. Try all test methods for completing various tasks, and choose the one ranked with the maximum "me in control" score. And they need the home version for ongoing testing in the "real world."

We've all experienced the full range of emotions while using gadgets, PCs, phones and software. At one end of the spectrum is a kind of thrilling joy, where something "just works." At the other end, there is a consuming rage. The amount of time your emotional state spends at one end of the spectrum rather than the other is the one and only thing that determines how much you "love" the product.

All the factors involved in using a PC -- consistency, usability, simplicity, stability, performance and even the successful completion of tasks -- all come down to control.

Give me control, and I will love your product. It's as simple as that.

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<What makes a design "Googley"?>

by Sue Factor

Late in 2007, our User Experience (UX) group—which does user interface design, visual design, user research, web development, and user interface writing—set out to articulate the principles that ought to guide Google designs worldwide. What are the fundamentals that all Google designers and researchers accept? Which approaches to design are particularly "Googley"? How can we encourage teams throughout Google to dream big and make smart design decisions?

A small team gathered to discuss these questions and define the Googley Design Principles:

1. Focus on people—their lives, their work, their dreams.

2. Every millisecond counts.

3. Simplicity is powerful.

4. Engage beginners and attract experts.

5. Dare to innovate.

6. Design for the world.

7. Plan for today's and tomorrow's business.

8. Delight the eye without distracting the mind.

9. Be worthy of people's trust.

10. Add a human touch.

These UX principles flow naturally from the Ten things Google has found to be true and the UX group's stated mission: to design products that satisfy and delight our users. We described the principles as "Our Aspirations" for two reasons:

We have a lot of work to do when it comes to implementation.

Every real-world product will have to strike a balance between all ten principles.

Still, we don't want to waffle too much. These principles represent the User Experience group's declaration of beliefs. With "Satisfy and Delight" stitched on our leotards, we're determined to get up on the tightrope and start juggling principles. Please applaud or boo, as appropriate, so that we can make the next act even better.

Bullog.cn is killed... again!

尽管上面的很多言论相当无趣，但自由的发表自己的观点并尊重别人的立场，是一个健康的社会最为基本的特征吧。搞不好过几天，blogspot也会被屏蔽；然后是Youtube？wikipedia？……随便吧，自欺欺人的做法，无非是逼着每一个心智健全的人离开这里。

If in order to banish the opinion in question from the world it were sufficient to stop the mouth of a single man,... then that would be very easily done. But things stand otherwise. To carry out such a decision it would be necessary not only to prohibit the book of Copernicus and the writings of other authors who follow the same opinion, but to ban the whole science of astronomy. Furthermore, it would be necessary to forbid men to look at the heavens。----By Galileo

Blessing~

又是一年考研的日子。熟识的人里面，鄂老师今天要冲刺北大的光华了。祝福一下，她会是最棒的那个！还有很多学生今天上SSAT的考场，同样祝福他们能够达到自己的目标~~